I feel as though I'm starting all over again. Going into month 4 of unemployment, and for the last 2-3 weeks, I've been laid out straight with illness! That 'break' really interrupted the flow I had and now, I'm feeling a bit stuck.
The days are getting warmer, the trees are budding, and I feel sluggish, losing ambition to go job hunting. Passing up an opportunity that was not a good fit for me has also set me back a bit. I hate to admit it, but I like having my days to myself, and for the most part enjoy taking each day as it comes. But I also know I need to get back to work, doing something society considers productive.
So, I will give myself the rest of this week to rest and get over the last of the coughing, and dependance on my inhaler, and then next week, I start attacking the job hunt again. I need to get back into the game before too much more time elapses. I still feel hope that the right job is out there, I just need to clarify what I want, so I can go get it. I have even been having dreams that I'm at work, a new place, and am doing well. Now just to find it in my waking life.
So that's where I am. I am grateful for the abundance in my career, and field of interest. And I am grateful for the abundance of positive relationships in my life :)
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Friday, May 3, 2013
Following the Spiral Down
Many blogs, articles, and memes have been circulating about the false interconnectedness of people through the internet. These documents show a potential decrease in ones ability to truly biologically, and psychologically connect with another person. How our brains slowly stop learning how to read anothers facial expressions, and thus not fully connect with them.
I am feeling that very keenly right now. 9 days of being sick. Of seeing people in small spurts at the store or Dr.'s office. I have spoken on the phone, online, but truly, I've not seen people to interact with them. And it's starting to weigh on me. I just want to chat in person with someone - visit!! Go for a walk (while still being able to breath). Watch a movie in a theater. I want to be healthy again - but this illness is not allowing me that pleasure. I feel tired, and worn out and so very, very sore from coughing.
And confused. Defeated. At wits end with the job search. The interviews all went so well. The job seems like a great fit for skills I never thought of marketing. But, starting only with 5 days total of sick and/or PTO? At more than a 1/3 less than my previous salary. That hurts and makes me want to cry.
I keep hearing his words, 'You are waiting for everything to be perfect, Tia. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. You just have to go with it, and live life.'
Yet, how do I stop feeling as if I am worth more. That I know I am worth more. How do I come to terms with taking steps back. Are they steps back? Is it ok? I feel like I owe my mentors more, that I am to do so much more with my 'potential.' Am I ok, with having less? Yes, I'm ok with making less than my previous Salary. I'm ok with less than my previous 4 weeks of vacation. I even ok with less than the 12 days of PTO I had banked. But I think I'm coming to realize my initial goals are 2 weeks of vacation, at least 3-6 PTO/sick days, holidays paid, health/vision/dental, 401k, and you know, with that, I'm actually ok with a hefty pay decrease. I would prefer just $10-15k less, but I would go a bit lower.
And a job that offers me a good work life balance - preferably day shift, weekends or at least 1 weekend day off. No crazy late night phone calls, and a chance to learn more, using the skills I have acquired while adding to them. Sounds easy right? Oh, and I would like to start a job healthy. Yes, to be able to breath and not cough a lung or stomach out would be fabulous.
So I keep looking. I keep hunting. And I hope, HOPE, that I can find my next job. And that I will be comfortable with it. That I won't feel as though I'm letting anyone down, and that I can start to discern what I want to do with my lie, AFTER or even while I'm working. Because right now, I'm feeling a little down, and I'm trying to see the sunlight ...
I am feeling that very keenly right now. 9 days of being sick. Of seeing people in small spurts at the store or Dr.'s office. I have spoken on the phone, online, but truly, I've not seen people to interact with them. And it's starting to weigh on me. I just want to chat in person with someone - visit!! Go for a walk (while still being able to breath). Watch a movie in a theater. I want to be healthy again - but this illness is not allowing me that pleasure. I feel tired, and worn out and so very, very sore from coughing.
And confused. Defeated. At wits end with the job search. The interviews all went so well. The job seems like a great fit for skills I never thought of marketing. But, starting only with 5 days total of sick and/or PTO? At more than a 1/3 less than my previous salary. That hurts and makes me want to cry.
I keep hearing his words, 'You are waiting for everything to be perfect, Tia. Nothing is ever going to be perfect. You just have to go with it, and live life.'
Yet, how do I stop feeling as if I am worth more. That I know I am worth more. How do I come to terms with taking steps back. Are they steps back? Is it ok? I feel like I owe my mentors more, that I am to do so much more with my 'potential.' Am I ok, with having less? Yes, I'm ok with making less than my previous Salary. I'm ok with less than my previous 4 weeks of vacation. I even ok with less than the 12 days of PTO I had banked. But I think I'm coming to realize my initial goals are 2 weeks of vacation, at least 3-6 PTO/sick days, holidays paid, health/vision/dental, 401k, and you know, with that, I'm actually ok with a hefty pay decrease. I would prefer just $10-15k less, but I would go a bit lower.
And a job that offers me a good work life balance - preferably day shift, weekends or at least 1 weekend day off. No crazy late night phone calls, and a chance to learn more, using the skills I have acquired while adding to them. Sounds easy right? Oh, and I would like to start a job healthy. Yes, to be able to breath and not cough a lung or stomach out would be fabulous.
So I keep looking. I keep hunting. And I hope, HOPE, that I can find my next job. And that I will be comfortable with it. That I won't feel as though I'm letting anyone down, and that I can start to discern what I want to do with my lie, AFTER or even while I'm working. Because right now, I'm feeling a little down, and I'm trying to see the sunlight ...
Friday, April 26, 2013
The Job Search & Choices
It's Spring! A time of re-birth! And my own personal New Year, being the April Taurus baby that I am.
It's also been approximately 1.5 years since my last bad chest cold - and I'm sitting here in my living room, with the smell of eucalyptus permeating the air, a varied assortment of pills and herbs lined up along my bedside, and Juice, water, and tea at the ready. Oh, yes, and my inhaler. 2 days before my birthday; 1 day before one of my oldest friend's wedding day, and I'm home, lightheaded and fighting a chest cold before it goes full blown. Prednisone is awesome, but I really prefer the non-bloated look, so I'm trying to avoid it.
And with all of this, I have the dance of 2 job possibilities circling through my mind, keeping me awake at night. Yes, that's right - the job fairy has arrived, and I have 2 possibilities to consider. Neither of which is the job I have been advertising for myself. I thought, oh yes, I thought I wanted to be an Assistant General Manager of a limited service hotel.
Even though my research and personal homework has shown that I would be best suited as a counselor, teacher, social worker, life coach, etc. A position in which I work independently, helping others see the best in themselves and helping them through life's troubles. But, career changing is not highly advised right now. With so many individuals are out of work, competing for jobs in their own fields - if you try changing, you are up against many with experience and developed skill sets. So I decided to begrudgingly stay in the hospitality field. And figured the next logical step would be AGM, or even GM...
Yet, I also applied for some sales jobs - even had interviews. And found they wanted to pay me the same rate I received just out of college - 9 long, blood, sweat, and tear-filled years ago. I thought the sales world would be exciting, and fun, and would offer a great change of pace. Then after some thought, and speaking with a GM in the field (outside of ARAMARK), I found I was even more compelled to stay in my field of choice. I actually got excited about it. I put the thought of sales out of my mind, and focused on finding Operational positions as an AGM & GM.
Weeks went by. I attended many classes at the Career Center. I crafted new versions of my resume. I even did more market research trying to find that 'perfect fit' in a company whom I could approach. Following advice from my classes - I created my very own business cards and the day after receiving them, I attended a networking event on my own! Low and behold - I received a call the next day ... for a SALES job! UGH! Why? Why oh WHY Sales again?
I took the call. I spoke to the Director of Sales. I wasn't overly enthused about the prospect, but I didn't want to turn down an opportunity. It's now going on 3 full months without a job! And this was a lead! Thankfully my honesty and genuine nature won out, and I was granted a face to face interview the next day. I'm so glad it worked out!! The building is fashioned after a castle. The team is amazing, and my interview was blessed. I met with the GM just a few days ago. And during that meeting was presented with the option of Accounting/HR.
Meanwhile - other opportunities have presented them selves as well! GM with Sodexo, and AGM with Springhill Suites. And from the Hospitality conference, an offer to forward my resume to some other folks!
Options. Choices. A chance to change my future path. During the phone interview for AGM, I felt my soul die just a bit. Wither up, and retreat. I do not want to work 60-80hrs a week anymore. I do not want to be the sole person responsible for the initial success or failure of a property. So AGM / GM ... maybe not so much.
But sales - could be interesting. And the Accounting/HR position - calls to some of my strengths and interests in a way I never knew existed. To be offered a position that could help me balance my life, and still allow me to assist others, and offer support to the property. YAY! And to have 2! different leaders acknowledge my potential, without any solid experience to back me. Most fortunate indeed.
So Choices. Options. Potential offers. My 3rd interview just the day after my birthday!
Let's hope this cold clears up by then! Here's to good fortune! And the beginning of my new year - spring! When new life, and possibilities are birthed ;)
Choices, Chances, Changes:
You must make a choice to take a chance, or your life will never change!
It's also been approximately 1.5 years since my last bad chest cold - and I'm sitting here in my living room, with the smell of eucalyptus permeating the air, a varied assortment of pills and herbs lined up along my bedside, and Juice, water, and tea at the ready. Oh, yes, and my inhaler. 2 days before my birthday; 1 day before one of my oldest friend's wedding day, and I'm home, lightheaded and fighting a chest cold before it goes full blown. Prednisone is awesome, but I really prefer the non-bloated look, so I'm trying to avoid it.
And with all of this, I have the dance of 2 job possibilities circling through my mind, keeping me awake at night. Yes, that's right - the job fairy has arrived, and I have 2 possibilities to consider. Neither of which is the job I have been advertising for myself. I thought, oh yes, I thought I wanted to be an Assistant General Manager of a limited service hotel.
Even though my research and personal homework has shown that I would be best suited as a counselor, teacher, social worker, life coach, etc. A position in which I work independently, helping others see the best in themselves and helping them through life's troubles. But, career changing is not highly advised right now. With so many individuals are out of work, competing for jobs in their own fields - if you try changing, you are up against many with experience and developed skill sets. So I decided to begrudgingly stay in the hospitality field. And figured the next logical step would be AGM, or even GM...
Yet, I also applied for some sales jobs - even had interviews. And found they wanted to pay me the same rate I received just out of college - 9 long, blood, sweat, and tear-filled years ago. I thought the sales world would be exciting, and fun, and would offer a great change of pace. Then after some thought, and speaking with a GM in the field (outside of ARAMARK), I found I was even more compelled to stay in my field of choice. I actually got excited about it. I put the thought of sales out of my mind, and focused on finding Operational positions as an AGM & GM.
Weeks went by. I attended many classes at the Career Center. I crafted new versions of my resume. I even did more market research trying to find that 'perfect fit' in a company whom I could approach. Following advice from my classes - I created my very own business cards and the day after receiving them, I attended a networking event on my own! Low and behold - I received a call the next day ... for a SALES job! UGH! Why? Why oh WHY Sales again?
I took the call. I spoke to the Director of Sales. I wasn't overly enthused about the prospect, but I didn't want to turn down an opportunity. It's now going on 3 full months without a job! And this was a lead! Thankfully my honesty and genuine nature won out, and I was granted a face to face interview the next day. I'm so glad it worked out!! The building is fashioned after a castle. The team is amazing, and my interview was blessed. I met with the GM just a few days ago. And during that meeting was presented with the option of Accounting/HR.
Meanwhile - other opportunities have presented them selves as well! GM with Sodexo, and AGM with Springhill Suites. And from the Hospitality conference, an offer to forward my resume to some other folks!
Options. Choices. A chance to change my future path. During the phone interview for AGM, I felt my soul die just a bit. Wither up, and retreat. I do not want to work 60-80hrs a week anymore. I do not want to be the sole person responsible for the initial success or failure of a property. So AGM / GM ... maybe not so much.
But sales - could be interesting. And the Accounting/HR position - calls to some of my strengths and interests in a way I never knew existed. To be offered a position that could help me balance my life, and still allow me to assist others, and offer support to the property. YAY! And to have 2! different leaders acknowledge my potential, without any solid experience to back me. Most fortunate indeed.
So Choices. Options. Potential offers. My 3rd interview just the day after my birthday!
Let's hope this cold clears up by then! Here's to good fortune! And the beginning of my new year - spring! When new life, and possibilities are birthed ;)
Choices, Chances, Changes:
You must make a choice to take a chance, or your life will never change!
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